Twenty twenty didn't win

My stomach is cramping up again. It's not as bad as before. I let kenzie see Neil and he was rude. I missed work again. I need to get my life together. Been okay besides a bit irritated some days. I don't have a lot to say.

I'm a bit depressed, irritable and low motivation. Prinon canceled on me on valentine's day because he was sick from the second covid vaccine. He's in new York right now for a conference. I work tomorrow. Kenzie stressing me out again. I'm not lost in sadness, but it is there. I was 5 minutes late to work today because my car got stuck in the end of the driveway. That's the second time I got stuck this week. I ordered some custom converse because my work pair is starting to separate at the toe bad. I just downloaded a drawing app on the kindle. I'm working on keyboard every day. I've been reading, writing, and doing art. I take care of my sims but it's kinda boring. Neil has been cranky a bit but otherwise he's good. I've been paying bills and checking the mail. Mom's been helping a lot. 

Talked to the lawyer, she's gonna help. I feel a lot better now. Went to the hospital over the weekend because my stomach was messed up again. They sent me for an ultrasound of my gallbladder and stuff. Did that yesterday, hopefully I get some answers as to why it kept happening. Got a little depressed about it, but am trying to pull myself back together.

Working an extra day a week at the library now. Not sure if I mentioned it. Going to be going to court for Neil. Meeting with a lawyer next week. I'm so sick of the whole situation. I tried being nice and it wasn't good enough. Have been taking care of my soul. Or at least trying to. I'm really frustrated and it sucks. But otherwise life is not bad.